Yesterday I was on schedule and ready to jump right back into work after having a day of cleaning Tuesday, so I was about to start up some workout music, but I felt the Lord telling me to put on worship music instead, so I did.


The workout turned into a worship session where I was mostly praying in tongues.

During worship, I had the thought to go back home and homeschool the kids.

I kept trying to push the idea aside and even rebuke it because the Lord told me not to look back, but it kept getting stronger, and a desire to go came so much that my mind started planning for it.


I asked the Lord, “If this isn’t from You, please take it from me.

The entire day into the night, the mission was on my heart, and my mind did its best to work it out in the natural.

I didn’t get any work done after that, and into the next day, I am 93% sure I’m going back to help with the kids in June.

leave or stay

The 7% will come as I spend time with the Lord. Either that or God will take away the desire because I asked Him to. 

Last night in Midweek, I cried out, “I’ll go wherever You want me to go and do whatever You want me to do. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. 

As long as I have Jesus with me, I am home. 

I just don’t want any desire to blind me when I come to the Lord. 

I don’t want something so badly that I am not honestly and humbly coming before the Lord and giving Him the reigns in my life.

Leave or stay, it is not up to me but the Lord, and I don’t want to deceive myself into thinking I’m yielding and being obedient when I’m not.

Stepping forward

I am done with letting fleshly desires control me. They are not my Lord. I feel like I have made this statement before, but by the grace of God, I have the victory, and I will fight for what’s been given me.


I finished Killing Kryptonite by John Bevere right before I spent time in prayer yesterday and felt led to leave Colorado for a season. I believe the Lord is directing me to go reread the book.


There is a harmony between grace and living holy I have to come to a full understanding in.


I talked to Christina about moving back, and she seems to like the idea, albeit she was surprised.

I also informed Arielle, and her reaction was more along the lines of you missed it this time; you better lay down some fleece.

Then I talked to Carisa about it, and she gave me advice and encouragement, and we prayed together. I am thankful for that.


I love you Lord!


In His Service,



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